As someone who has struggled with debilitating anxiety and panic disorder, as well as addiction, I was constantly seeking a step by step guide as to how to "do" life - preferably with charts and pictures. I remember googling, "how do I be ok with this moment?"
I did not want to hear the elusive suggestions "just breathe, let go", or "forgive and forget". Those were meaningless offerings to me. Tell me how to breathe! I struggled with finding a full breath. In fact it hurt to breathe and it often led to more bouts of panic.
And let go? How do I know if I let go when the same cycle keeps repeating itself?
What am I not letting go of?
Then I was introduced to the concept Breathe, Relax, Feel, Watch, Allow. And let me tell you, I was not on board.
At least I was guided in the proper way to breathe - that was pivotal. And relax well, I was on board for that, but FEEL. No thank you I am outta here. I spent a lot of time building a wall around myself so as not to feel. I was terrified of feeling.
What changed things for me, was Yoga Nidra. Yoga Nidra was the first practice that I could willfully "do" that offered me relief from the constant state of fight or flight that I lived in. The beautiful thing was that all I had to "do" was lie down and listen. It taught my mind and body how to deeply relax. Gradually, as I continued to do Yoga Nidra, I became aware that BRFWAing is essentially Yoga Nidra, that I could practice it anytime, anywhere. "Yoga Nidra on the go" as it were. Since I loved Yoga Nidra and trusted in the practice I could embrace this concept of feeling. Letting go, and letting be were now tangible rather than elusive concepts. I no longer feared feeling. I began to practice BRFWA every time I noticed I was in reaction, and every time it led me to right action. Note the important element here "everytime I noticed". Noticing is crucial. Noticing offers you the choice to change your state of being. You are powerless to change until you notice.
Finding a tool like Yoga Nidra was like the hero finding the magical elixir. I have dove deeply into this practice and am thrilled to be able to offer Yoga Nidra's healing abilities to those who feel stuck by circumstance.